Monday, December 20
good news: i'm not a klutz. bad news: i have been hyperventilating all this while without knowing. yup it causes the arms to go all numb and tingly etc. no biggie. hyperventilating subconsciously. weird. triggered by the pain from fibromyalgia. indirectly causing my clumsiness. whew i'm not a real klutz. but once or twice i've been aware that i'm hyperventilating. oh well.
i refuse to walk forwards looking backwards. from now on my gaze must be fixed firmly on what lies ahead: hc. even though i won't know anyway from our school in arts, even though i don't know what cca i'll join, even though i'm so afraid of embarrassing myself with my chinese.. i have to go through with it, make new friends, learn to love it. arghhhhhh.
it must've been love.
7:42 pm
xoxo
